Hi there, loyal readers! (all three of you!!) For the past month or so, I've noticed myself pulling away from God, and with that, slowly falling apart mentally. I seem to go through this at some point during every deployment. When things are just steadily moving along, how do you keep the close relationship with God that developed out of a tragic situation? I was so happy and uplifted during such a difficult time, because I could feel God with me daily. Now that life is 'back to normal,' I'm having a hard time igniting that passion for Him again. It finally hit me tonight that I've become unfaithful to Him. I haven't been reading my Bible daily, which was such a huge part of my life for many months, and although I still say a quick prayer before bed, there hasn't been much meaning to it. So I'm sorry Lord for being unfaithful to you when you were so faithful to me during one of the hardest times in my life. I'm ready to come back.
I don't have a tip of the day, but I could use one!
June 23-a very unattractive photo of myself. It was a long day consisting of a headache, a drive back home from Illinois, and a wives' coffee. I need sleep!
June 24-my newest cd. I don't know why the picture is crooked, but that's okay. Leona Naess is someone I hadn't heard of before I heard the most beautiful song on the show Weeds. It's called Ballerina, and it's amazing. The rest of the album is pretty good, but that song is my fave.
June 25-went to Nashville to shop with some of my army wife friends. We had a super time, especially when we got to the counter at Vicky's Secret and learned that our sale items were marked an extra 50% off. Score!
June 26-It was a sunny day, so I took the Jeep out for a spin. It is a great summer vehicle. I only wish that Doug could be here to enjoy it.
First of all, kudos for being so transparent! You've had a rough year, so it's understandable that you are just getting through it however you can. Honestly though, being "close" to God is a choice. You know He's always there, you just have to meet him halfway. I think we all stray many times in our journey, so don't focus on that, just move forward from this point.
ReplyDeleteYou can also look at this way: You are going to be a mom someday soon. I know you probably don't let your mind go there yet, but it's true. Once that happens you (and Doug of course) are going to be setting the standard for your family, so why not start now? Just become the person you want your future children to look up to and make your decisions based on that. Start preparing yourself now for the little person God is getting ready to bless you with:)
You will probably regret giving me your blog site :)
ReplyDeleteWow! Keri is a very smart lady! The "title" to my "lessons to remember" is "Lessons I wish I'd learn when I was young; lessons I wish I had taught my children when they were young; lessons I need to remember now". If I had figured some of this stuff out years ago, it would have been a lot easier on all of us. But...some of us are stubborn. So we start where we are and go from there.
OK. One more thing -- "faith" is not passive, it has to be practiced over and over and we either choose to practice it or not.
I think you are a very strong woman and I'm extremely proud of you and glad you're in my life... and some day, you will be a terrific mom.
Love ya lots.
P.S. I didn't like msumom -- so I decided -- I have a name and will use it :)
ReplyDeleteI really do agree with the above comments. I think when you do go through tough ( to say the least) times, you tend to cling to the constant in your life, which is Christ. He is always there, sometimes we feel closer to Him than others. Like Keri said, move forward from this point. He loves you, Amy and even if you don't feel like He is there....He IS!
ReplyDeleteTwo songs came to mind....Josh Wilson "Savior, Please" and Natalie Grant "Perfect People." They are AMAZING songs!